Drenched in reverb and shimmering gorgeousness, it takes you a little while to realise there's a whole lot of bite and rage simmering under the surface. Beautiful and occasionally venomous.
Favorite track: i'm not afraid to die, i am afraid to be alive.
songs recorded winter/spring of 2013 with one mic and one girl. i hope this fills your quota for sad-girl music and you enjoy it and share it and it makes you feel things. thanks for everything. xoxo
released April 1, 2013
all tracks written/recorded by roya weidman. additional instrumental work provided by matt summers (guitars/vocals on "i'm not afraid to die, i am afraid to be alive"), and logan freund (bass on "in memory of when i cared").
i wanna be alone forever. i work best when i am sad, turning the gears inside my head until i feel like i am dead.
set me on fire and breathe in what's left of me.
Track Name: in memory of when i cared
i remember counting gravestones where they buried your brother (best friend). the dirt was wet. you said "i am sad" and i said i was sad too. the sun was setting and i knew i had to say it. "i love(d) you". there is no where for us to go except down. how does anybody sleep at night? i never want to know. i'll miss you when you're dead.
Track Name: sugar coated bones
i should not look at you, you shine much too bright. a golden light that burns my heart from the inside, and honey pours across your words. you fill me up but i never really seem to feel full.
but i am not in your bones
and i am not part of your soul.
so tear me up and hate my love, i don't need to be reminded of all the stupid things i've done so rip me up and hate my guts. since when has "i'm sorry" never really been enough?
and i am not in your bones
i am not part of your soul.
Track Name: bodies made of water
i am the wind, feel me dance across your skin as you are heading in. i am the leaves, watch me crumble with the seasons as i fall deeper into it all. oh my sweet tidal wave i'm not running from you anymore. i'm barely able but i can learn to feel and let you in. i am the trees, i am planted with my roots in deep, just like your arms around me. i am the sea, you swim in me and i push you away. oh my sweet tidal wave i'm not running from you anymore. i'm barely able but i can learn to feel and let you in.
be my friend.
Track Name: i'm not afraid to die, i am afraid to be alive
i want to rip you apart and learn how to sleep in the dark. i'll comb through the blood and guts and live in your heart. but you never exhale enough, you just hold onto the smoke in your lungs. you say "we're all gonna die" so it makes it alright. i'm sorry i was only using you; maybe one day i'll learn how to keep the promises i make.